As stated before, the initial reason to start this blog was to record my weight loss journey, but then I figured I didn't just want to focus on that because it would be horrendously boring. No one ever wants to read about lettuce (which I am legit allergic to by the way). I did however want to an initial post to explain all about it.
I've been overweight ever since I remember and honestly, it doesn't cause me any problems at all. When I was younger I used to get abuse constantly walking through the streets which I obviously hated then but now I think it has made me a stronger person today. Plus I have heard every fat insult under the sun! I used to get really upset about thinking that I was going to be single forever and now I realise that's the lamest thing ever and if you're single it means you can stay out as late as you want, drink as much as you want, and talk to who you want. I still get abuse now and again, mostly in shit indie clubs in Liverpool by "LADS" who wear low v necks or think they're God's gift by snorting any substance going. But I'm always drunk so I kick off at them and it doesn't phase me as much. I just don't visit those types of places now as I don't really want to enter the "lion's den" so to speak. That's why I go to the same particular place in town every week. Because I know I won't get trouble there and if I do, they will be kicked out. And I think that's why it bothers me so much when people complain that I go there so often, because for me, it's not as easy to go to other clubs because of the comments and that. However I'd say I probably have the same self esteem issues as most girls, and that's mostly brought on by alcohol. I feel that sometimes, in the press, being overweight gets a really bad rep and we're all a bit worthless and crying on the inside but I can assure you, Katie Hopkins, that I definitely am not. I think being fat has made me funnier, more confident and and thicker skinned. People think 'thin' girls have it all: the perfect job, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect life but perfection is boring and perfect people definitely don't send hilarious snapchats like I do.
I've decided to lose all my weight this year, 2014, because it's a defining year in my life. I will graduate, I will attend my first wedding of a friend (which I am majorly excited for), I turn 21, then I am lost in my lack of prospects. And these are all things which I would love to visually look a bit nicer for. I would also love to go on holiday this year, and to V Fest - both of which I did last summer and it was amazing but slightly tarred by the amount of abuse I got there, especially at V. I don't want to let dickheads ruin my life, so why bother giving them something to shout about. A major plus side also is the amount of new checked shirts I will be able to buy too!!!
I've joined the gym, and have started eating healthily. I refuse to give up alcohol because it is perfection in a bottle. I have a lot of support from friends which makes it a lot better because if I don't lose weight, it's just going to be awkward after talking them all about my plans. Hopefully I will end 2014 talking about this journey on This Morning with Holly and Phil. If that doesn't happen, I will cry and comfort eat to a size 40000.
And now I don't really know what else to write here and how to end this touching post. Only by saying, if you see me eating cake, let me eat cake because either I've had a bad day, or the cake is amazing.
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