Everyone gets talked about, whether it's good or bad, it happens to us all. Unfortunately most of the time it is bad. If anyone says that they don't do it, they are lying. Especially if they're a girl. No offence to them, I love girls, hence why I'm 80% gay.
And if you're someone like me, who is very open and honest about how they feel (perhaps too honest?) then you can often find yourself annoying any one person who then likes to spread it like wildfire. Shit happens. But it shouldn't. Does it matter that I let people know what I think about something? Obviously I'm not talking about being a bitch here, but I'm talking about things like saying you don't want to do something when you actually don't want to do something but are then perceived to be "difficult and only want your own way". Like when I don't want to go to Heebies because every time I go I get abuse but then some think I'm just controlling the night out. When in reality, people could easily go without me, I'm perfectly happy going elsewhere with someone else. Admittedly there will be a lot less sass with you but your loss.
I will be the first to admit that I love gossip. I love hearing who's got with who and who has now had an argument with someone else. And that's probably my girls school background (which I had a great time in and don't think they deserve the bad rep they get). And I will also be the first to admit that if I find out something extra exciting I will tell my best mates, because I tell them everything. But what I don't do is go round spreading stories that a) are actually false, b) far too personal, c) absolutely pointless and d) that will purposely hurt the other person if they found out. And what I don't understand is why so many people will?
In the past, I know I have been talked about a lot, and partly I understand it, but also I majorly don't. I don't think it's fair that just one side of the story is being spread around and no one has heard my opinion. I don't think it's fair that I'm being portrayed wrongly. I don't think it's fair that friends can sit there and bitch about people and then act like nothing is wrong. I think my business is exactly that, my business. But then I also massively accept that when you act like a dick, you forego some of that right. I'm not going to sit here and slag anyone off because to be honest with you all, I actually have nothing bad to say about anyone at the moment. Well maybe two people, but they definitely won't be reading this. I just wish I could go back, right the wrongs, put my points across better, and not have everyone find out the story in the worst way possible. it's shit to know that friends are being horrible about you, talking about you, when you're not there to defend yourself. It's even shitter when others believe it. But it's definitely definitely the shittest when you realise Adele still hasn't brought out her new album yet and it's been 3 years, at this rate it's going to be called '65' (haaaa massive Adele joke for you there, you're welcome).
I have one message to anyone reading this. If a friend is going through a bad patch, whether you know the details or not, and they do something stupid (mostly after lots of wine - happened to me countless times), don't jump to conclusions and tell people the wrong version of the story. Because when people think badly of you because of an incorrect story, it actually really hurts and it's really shit, especially to see people who are normally great mates, act like they're a complete stranger.
Keep being sassy xo
P.S. Can I also just say a HUGE thank you to anyone who's been reading these comments and sending me messages of support, I can't even explain how much they mean to me. Love you all!
That song! why is it amazing?!
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